This Is Where I Waste My Time

Its seems that I think of too much at once and it hurts me to say but I need to grow up and live each day to its fullest and do what I really love!

I’m at that point again where I have no idea where my life is heading and what my purpose is in life. I really want to perform onstage but doing what? I finally understand why the grass isn’t as green as it used to be. I’m just second guessing myself once again. I just don’t know what I want to do with my life in particular. I just want to speak my mind and hear other peoples opinions on them as well. I guess I’m just facing reality now that my life isn’t preset and now I have to make my own decisions…and it fucking sucks.

I was reminded of 2pac recently and was listening to some of his music and it brought out a lot of memories. I didn’t even realize that his birthday was today and it was so weird that I would be reminded of him so close to his birth date. Anyway, I have so much respect and love for 2pac solely because he was my introduction to Hip-Hop even from the pain that he rapped through he still was the same person and spoke his mind whenever he had the chance. His passing was too soon and for me a large part of music died when he passed (even though posthumous albums kept his music going). I gotta just say that as a commenter on the world he was wise and really the true essence of the youth of the time. He will be solely missed. if I ever had an idol it would be him, not only for his music but his perspective and opinions as a person whom observed what the world really was and is now. Listen to his albums, please its all true words from the heart and nothing else. R.I.P Tupac Shakur